grace, love, redeem, God

Am I Unredeemable?

For year’s I never understood the meaning of grace. It was one of those words that became muddled in meaning with mercy, forgiveness, compassion; the list can go on. It wasn’t until recently that the magnitude of grace hit me square in the face; not because I had earned it, but because I hadn’t.

I didn’t go through a rebellious stage, but with my walk with depression, there were many times that my emotions, or lack thereof, hurt others. I would push people away, express anger and bitterness, and cry to God to bring direction to my runaway thoughts and feelings. People were hurt. I was hurt. But God’s grace was there; moving in my life, covering me with love, and wrapping my heart in layers of protection.

Grace is a funny thing. Grace is someone loving you even when you believe they have no reason to. Grace is someone choosing to understand your point of view even when it conflicts with their own. Grace is forgiving someone even when it is the hardest thing you can do. Just like the famous song, How He Loves, by John Mark McMillan, God’s grace runs deeper than we could ever know.

“And we are His portion and He is our prize,

Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,

If His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.”

One could argue that grace leads to redemption.

I was reading a blog the other day about self-care. The blog was enjoyable enough but one question that the author asked, stood out to me.

“Am I unredeemable?”

This question stuck with me because it is such a vulnerable and intimate question to ask. Am I worth it? Am I loved? Does my future mean something, despite the weight of my past? It got me thinking about what redemption really means. A quick Google search later, and I had a good idea. 

Do me a favour and skip the first definition of the word, and instead focus on the second.

To redeem is to “gain or regain possession of (something) in exchange for payment.”

When writing this blog, I tried to think of ways in which God redeemed His children, and what that looked like in the Bible. I looked up the stories of David, Elijah, Paul, and so many more who experienced the incredible grace of God when He redeemed them despite their mistakes and their disbelief. Many of them believed that they were unworthy of redemption, but God saw things differently. God chose to love and extend grace, regaining possession of the vision that He had for their lives.

This love is the same love that compelled Christ to die on the cross. He redeemed us all by taking on our sin as His own and paying for our sins with His death. This unending, unconditional, unbelievable love retook possession of our hearts, and our minds and our souls, and wrapped us in God’s protection, while Christ stepped out of His Father’s protection to pay for our sins with His life. It was because of God’s profound grace, that redemption was even made possible.

We can be quick to sin. We can be quick to hurt people. No matter how hard we try, it is inevitable that we will make mistakes, but God’s grace is enough. It is by His grace that we have a relationship with Him. We don’t have to ask if we are redeemable, because God has already proven that we are and continues to show this every moment of every day in loving on His children.

“I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you.”– Isaiah 44:22